tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34644671.post6339908623053060789..comments2023-06-28T06:46:59.447-04:00Comments on because i'm that self-indulgent: smile like you mean itvapidly vibranthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03398449436394601096noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34644671.post-38285978806980299242006-11-07T13:29:00.000-05:002006-11-07T13:29:00.000-05:00Thank you! So far, being 24 feels just about...the...Thank you! So far, being 24 feels just about...the same! <br /><br />Personally, i tend to be pessimistic about these things, and although 'living like it's intentional' is also exactly what i try to do, i don't expect anything miraculous to happen as in 'I'll be HAPPY' and/or at peace anytime soon, that's what i mean. I do however think i would like to get off my anti-depressants soon, which ironically causes me much anxiety in return :s. It should be interesting to see how that goes...<br /><br />For what it's worth, good luck to you & your many exciting projects in any case. And running away to another country is a <em>grand</em> idea indeed!vapidly vibranthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03398449436394601096noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34644671.post-39789988731395923942006-11-06T15:03:00.000-05:002006-11-06T15:03:00.000-05:0024 was the year i had an emotional breakdown. i lo...24 was the year i had an emotional breakdown. i lost my job by quitting. the lease on my apartment ran out and i let it. my mom didn't want me to come home because she felt i needed to elarn how to handle my life by myself without being a burden to others. and my relationship with my boyfriend at the time disintegrated because his parents couldn't accept me because i am adopted. i ran away to korea for four years. it was a nice break. <br /><br />this year i turned 30. i'm also still a mess ,but at least i'm in therapy and taking something. i am not in a relationship. i am holed up in a studio apartment watching law and order: criminal intent most sundays. and i'm still a bit of a mess...wait did i say that already.<br /><br />buti can't blieve it's just another year of suffering and grief ahead of me. i wo't let it be. even if the undercurrent in my life is one that threatens to pull me under to the bottom, i'm going to live like it's intentional.<br /><br />i am considering running off to another country to live for a couple years though. but that's pie in the sky right now. i've still got a test and an application process i have to conquer before that becomes a reality.<br /><br />so happy birthday in advance. you've earned it!arbĀ®https://www.blogger.com/profile/12874557493492579991noreply@blogger.com